of several kinds.
I have an aunt in a nursing home right now, and she's not doing well. There were several times in the past week where the nurses thought she wasn't going to last the night.
I just found out that I don't get time off from work (even through I'm her health care proxy, have power of attourney, and her next of kin), so I have to scramble to make sure I cover as much time as I can. So working extra each day, but since I can't have overtime I'll have to work a short day or make sure that I have a full 8 hours saved up to take Friday off, if I don't get a call in the meantime to go up to my hometown for a funeral.
I need to release this tension somehow....
On one level, this is about the least sexy I've felt in years.... on another level, I want to fuck and be driven so insane by it that I can't help but scream and not think.
A friend of mine just said to me that feeling sexy is something you do when you're in a good place. The urge to fuck... you don't have to be in a good place for that.
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Oh... and I have a visit from that female friend that women love to have. Which for me definately interfers with fucking.
Well, now I understand the dark undertones . . .
Your last comment was particularly insightful. I feel sexiest when I am at ease with myself, not under pressure, on an even keel emotionally. But I want to fuck just about all the time.
I hope you come through these dark days and figure out how to release the angst that's tying you in knots. And when that happens, I hope you feel both sexy and horny!
the angst is mainly from seeing my aunt in so much pain. Which at this point there's only one way for it to go away. :\
Jaenelle, I am sorry to hear you’re going through so much. I’m sending you a big hug.
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