Monday, October 23, 2006

Ice and Fire

Ice and Fire


Sometimes I turn away from my sexuality.

Being told that I've overwhelmed them can make me step back, scared of myself.

I get worried that all I am is a walking hormone.

Then have a friend call me by that same phrase (even with a joking laugh) just helps to reinforce the fear.

Sex is good. I know that.

Sex is healthy. I know that as well.

But too much of a good thing can be bad, so I get worried that this fever and want in my blood is too much.

And I lock up.

I cool my heated blood out of sheer reaction and end up encased by ice.

I get to the point where things that I know feel good have no effect whatsoever.

Thank the gods for other friends and lovers.

Gently kissing away the fears, challenging it.

Challenging me and asking what I want.

"Make me burn and melt the ice away."

And now I'm standing in a puddle, metaphorically, shaking off the last of the chill.

4 comments:

wordslut said...

Nice metaphor! You often write with a poetic quality that I enjoy very much …

And by the way, I am still waiting for the next part of the story about the hunt! :)

Cherrie said...

I feel like that sometimes. Make that rarely. The fire burns bright here just about all the time . . .

Mildred said...

M- Thank you. It's proving... reluctant to write.

Cherrie- it's every so often that this gets triggered.

Marnen said...

I like that post.

You know the Robert Frost poem, don't you?