Tuesday, March 25, 2008

When Poly isn't an Open Thing

So, most of you all know I'm poly. Within different groups of friends and such, and within my own families (by blood and by choice), this is a pretty well known fact.

But to others, it's not. Like the families of some of my... companions? lovers? secondaries? [note- all these terms are insufficient and inaccurate to a degree, but what else do I say if I'm not naming names?].

So, one of mine is going through some medical trouble and was in the hospital for a test/possible procedure yesterday.

While in the hospital, it was weird. I had to act just as a best friend in front of him and everyone else, while carrying the fear, concern, hope, and fragility of a lover/etc in my soul.

I must admit that I ended up leaking (crying) even when I didn't want to. And the procedure had to be pushed back for a couple of days due to equipment problems so they couldn't actually do the test- aka I get to do this again.

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