Wednesday, November 22, 2006

Cravings

It's you that I crave.

Your taste, your smell, your skin against mine.

The slide of your lips against mine, mixed with hot breath and slick tongue.

Warm hands, sure against flesh. Gripping and wanting.

Strong then soft and teasing.

Mouth and fingers just in the right places.

Sighs and gasps in just the right tones to sooth my soul.

I could lose myself in others, incredible orgasms and hot kisses.

But something will always be wanting, until I have you again.

Monday, November 20, 2006

I'm back

Sorry to be away for so long, but life was... life.

My aunt finally passed away back on the 9th after slipping into a coma earlier that morning. She's no longer in pain.

Last week I was mainly dealing with the funeral and with starting to pack up her house (she eas never married and didn't have kids, so this work is down to my brother and me to do it).

Working on not being so fuzzy and getting my sexual groove back. I've had some good moments and some bad ones the past couple of weeks.

Also, I just got a new job, and will start in a couple of weeks. I also have to move, so that means apartment hunting for a place on the 1st floor that can handle a concert grand piano and a cat.

Monday, November 06, 2006

Needing release

of several kinds.

I have an aunt in a nursing home right now, and she's not doing well. There were several times in the past week where the nurses thought she wasn't going to last the night.

I just found out that I don't get time off from work (even through I'm her health care proxy, have power of attourney, and her next of kin), so I have to scramble to make sure I cover as much time as I can. So working extra each day, but since I can't have overtime I'll have to work a short day or make sure that I have a full 8 hours saved up to take Friday off, if I don't get a call in the meantime to go up to my hometown for a funeral.

I need to release this tension somehow....

On one level, this is about the least sexy I've felt in years.... on another level, I want to fuck and be driven so insane by it that I can't help but scream and not think.

A friend of mine just said to me that feeling sexy is something you do when you're in a good place. The urge to fuck... you don't have to be in a good place for that.